Tell us about a time when you felt out of place.
Right now.
It rarely fails, I’m doing well, settling into a rhythm and then one! two! three! My body tells me I don’t belong in this place of writing regularly, not having setbacks in my exercise and activity routines.
Even though the car crash fucked up my blood flow in both arms and caused on/off ulnar nerve compressions, I’d never experienced such intense pain in the heel of my left hand. Four days on, I felt nauseous from it and it still almost made me feel like I’d pass out if not careful.
On day three of self-treatment with my at-home photobiomodulation therapy (laser) system, cranioelectrical stimulation, and audiovisual entrainment devices (based on my experience and previous advice), I gave in and got squeezed in to a virtual appointment with the amazing guys at BioFlex Laser Clinic. They said I probably both stretched and compressed it in my sleep. Wonderful.
They prescribed and demonstrated laser on shoulder near neck and elbow. Forearm if I had time and wanted to. Two days of that and almost all the pain went! (Last two mornings I’ve woken up with it back but mildly and CES Relief seems to be enough to deal with it before I get up.)
Feeling better enough to get back on social media, I replied to a comment on my Psychology Today post (embedded below).
I emailed them an update this week as requested. Among their advice was to reduce my activity and workouts to 25%. Arrrgghhhh!!!! At least walking could stay the same. They want another update next week but had warned me nerves take weeks and weeks to return to normal. Fun!
In case you’re wondering about my weekly Revelation post…It ain’t coming. I drafted it but my ulnar nerves on both arms have slammed shut the door on working on it for the time being. [blasphemous imprecations] Working on The Soul’s Awakening paperback design takes precedence. I’m relieved just to be able to work on it 15 minutes at a time a couple of times per day.
In case you’re wondering: using green lights and alpha wave entrainment helps with pain relief but psychic pain builds up. It becomes a balancing act of alpha or SMR versus usual SMR/Beta (with cyan for mood effect or yellow for thinking).
I’m cognizant of the irony of deciding to write more to help reduce my blood pressure after my GP had THE TALK with me on my diastolic hypertension, only for my ulnar nerve to say, yeah, no. That’s why I feel out of place these past 2 weeks.
